Things are slowly getting better. Very slowly. I've been keeping myself busy with projects here and there. Staying with Mom and Skip for a few months was a very wise decision. I've also had a lot of supportive siblings, and friends (Jay, Russel and Kalina in particular) which I greatly appreciate. It has helped take what would be a night mare scenario and instead make it merely a painful one. I'm still not used to things, but I'm getting there.
I have found a bar I like. Twains. It has the feel of what I'm looking for which is kind of the essence of everything I like about Decatur. I've only had one beer both times I've gone but have enjoyed the ambiance. They have concerts on Thursday nights and I think I'll make this a weekly occurrence. It helps me feel more like a real person and not just someone whose whole life revolves around rpg's, board games, computer games, internet games, LARPS, television and movies. There is absolutely nothing wrong with those things, but a balanced life has more. Right now for me 'more' consists of the gym....and these concerts. Writing helps, but I want my writing to reflect more of the world at large at this point. There is so much I've never had a chance to experience, now is the time to go out and experience it. I've explored every world that never was, inside out frontwards and backwards to the point that I'm pretty much a Master Explorer, Creator and "Citizen" of the Imagination. Now how about reality?
More dangerous, but more exciting at the same time. I think the lesson at the end of "Labyrinth" is a good one. Live in reality, but you can always have your 'old friends' around any time you close your eyes. Plus most of my real friends are involved in the unreal on a regular basis, so its not like I'm going to change things too radically.
Some of the things that are changing, besides the 'bar' are that I'm signing up for a pistol coarse with American Classic Marksman this week. I'm also taking a martial arts class in September. Still haven't chosen which one but I've got a whole month to do so.
Was going to go to my 20th high school reunion this week but was unable to get a flight for less than a thousand by the time it became clear I'd be able to go. Was going to go to Graceland instead for the weekend. But I had my first hangover. Moderation is definitely something is wise to practice.
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2 comments:
I love you Tom. I am glad that you are working through all of this. I wish I could give Jennifer a nice punch in her face. Not very Christ like though. I keep meaning to call you, but then life gets in the way, and then it's always late. I love you very much though. Twains is a pretty cool. Alot of people I went to high school with go there frequently. Be careful with the hangover stuff. Love you.
I appreciate the sentiment, but I still love Jennifer. In retrospect many things are becoming clearer, some of which I don't want to discuss on a blog; but of this there is no doubt. Up until the last month or so she has been in considerable pain and sadness of things ending as well...that makes it very hard for me to want to 'hit her in the face with a shovel'. I appreciate your empathy at my pain though.
Call me any time. I'm usually up until 12pm EST. I will be careful with the hangover stuff. As in...I never want to have on again so I'll make sure I drink two waters for anything else I drink. If not more.
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