Sunday, September 19, 2010

Busy and Fun Week

So Monday I went to Push Push theater with Mom and Skip for a reading of a Winter's Tale. It was really well done because we took just one scene and broke it down into its component parts and analyzed them again and again. It helped me as a writer by showing me how much you can cram into just one scene. Which I like a lot. I hope to go again though I won't be going tomorrow because of the Letoro Concert for Mythic plus the Venture Brother's viewing at Sergey's.

On Tuesday I went to the Gym and worked out. I also got more reading done on Dark Faith. I've been working diligently trying to review it but its a 400 page anthology of very deep and profound stories and I want to do them all justice. Then I went to see the first half of Venture Brothers and while I'd seen a few episodes, I must say it is six buckets of awesome. Blithering Idiot ale is also nice but I'm not gonna have that much again next time. We had fun.

Wednesday I had a nice talk with Jay and also got offered a part as a writer for the Mighty Tide of Justice website, which I am looking forward. I checked out the martial arts place I chose called Atlanta Kicks, and while it is expensive it sounds like what I'm looking for. Right now I'm tempted to go for their bigger package which includes cross training. I've been exercising more and lost some weight but until I reach certain thresholds I'd rather not mention specific numbers...yet.

Thursday night I went to the gym and got some errands done.

Friday I finally mailed Wayne's hat back. I then went to the range and practiced with 200 rounds. I'm about half of where I want to be, but I improved. Practice, as they say, makes perfect. I then went to see the show Winter's Bone, which is an absolutely excellent movie that I recommend if you can see it, though its indy and not for the feignt of heart. It is about the struggle of a 17 year old girl who has to keep her family together by taking rather drastic steps and how she suffers because of it. I then ate dinner and had a few beers at Manuel's tavern. This was just the right amount of alcohol and I had a good time. This might seem small or trivial, but for me it feels as if I have obtained one of many pieces of my life and skills that others take for granted that I've never had. (shrugs). It was a good night for me.

Saturday, I went to see the Dali exhibit at the High Museum of art. Dali was awesome but looney toons. I learned he was amazing self promoter and had an obsession with Nuclear Mysticism and Rhinoceros horns. I definitely want to continue learning more about him. I went to Centennial Olympic Park for an amazing view of the city, got some writing done and then practice Billiards a bit at Twain's.

Today has been relaxing and I've done rather little.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Blueprints for Life

So, I'm mixed. See, I ...hmmm...I'll use an analogy.

In "The Stand"...well, in "On Writing" the autobiography of Steven King, in which he writes about WRITING "the stand" he mentioned getting stuck in the middle of the book because his characters were doing exactly the same thing that the rest of society had been doing before he'd spent the first third of the book wiping it out. Of course, many consider the ending to be sub par to the rest of the book.

I don't want to be stuck in a pattern of failure. On the other hand, my ability to set goals and be organized is my greatest strength. So I can set goals and generally accomplish them, but I need to find a balance between setting goals that lift me up as a person and lift the world up, but that also leave enough room in my life for spontenity.

Here are my initial goals that I thought up at Dragon Con.

For my second life, writing, the next novel will be a contemporary novel set in the near future. Yes, that sounds like sci fi, but the difference is that I'm writing what I want to write, and there are a lot of things I want to say about the world and this is a way to say it. I also mean to write a few more scripts.

For my third life, producing, I've decided to produce a play, a documentary and a movie of some kind over the next year. The subject of the documentary has already presented itself to me but I'm not sure of the exact tone or scope. I also want to be cautious not to step on toes. For the film I'm not sure but I'm bouncing a lot of ideas.

For my fourth life I want to start a damn business. I have ideas but one way or another something will be in motion by the end of the year.

For my fifth live (yes, I'm starting that one already), I want to continue working with the Mythic Imagination Institute. Its a not for profit. I also want to work with a charity, but I'm not sure which one. I am patient but keeping my eyes open.

That still leaves who *I* am. I'm definitely going to start the martial art this year and I think I have the place picked out. Might keep up with the shooting. The larping...I was given caution on that and I'm considering. I am getting old, so I'm not sure one can continue to this kind of thing forever. On the other hand, I know being alone at dragon con sucked. So what I might also consider doing is getting involved with some local sci fi clubs/fan bases that ran tracks at Dragon Con. I'm still researching that.

Still, there are a few things that feel missing, but its a start. I have at least a frame work for a life and a direction, and those things will take up quite a bit of my time in the next few weeks anyway. While I'm open to dating at this point, I was given some very good advice about a few new skill sets I'd do well to learn....

How to learn them is still a bit of a mystery, but I'll keep you posted...

On the whole, things go well. Finished the first half of the graphic novel script, and writing a rather long kick ass review for a friend, though its an anthology which slows down how fast I can write it or the short stories all start to blur together.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Summary of Summer and Plan for Life 1 - Gaming

So, even though in many ways I consider myself 'retired' in this aspect of my life since I've done masterful things in the following areas:

Written and Published a supplement with a major rpg company
Run a gaming company
Run a masterful PBEM that was the crescendo of 10 years of epic play
Run almost two dozens awesome face to face campaigns
Played almost every conceivable character
Done hundreds of random 'things' I've wanted to do in games.

So, I think I can call that a lifetime of achievement. Obviously I could do more or less, but I'm satisfied with it. But even when 'retired' one can do things.

In this case, I've spent the summer thinking of a lot of things. Recovering, drifting and the like. It might seem a little silly to 'plan' one's life but things have been so upside down for me that the inertia that most people have simply doesn't apply to me. Everything was literally in flux. And it still is but I'm finally at a point where I can at least pick *A* direction and move that way.

Dragon Con 2010 was a crucible for me, which was very painful in some ways, but it was also at the same time a creative reset. I had a rather nice LARP experience that was quite fun. I have determined that I'm going to want to go back next year, which this year was very much in flux.

The chance of my staying in Atlanta at this point has gone up to about 67%. Basically, I'm going to try and make as much of a life here as I can. I'm moving out on my own again in early December and I'm going to spend six months after that establishing as many friendships and ties as I can, building a life as if I intended to stay a long time. If I feel satisified with my life and I'm still employed I'll stay. If I lose my job again, or I really feel only partially fulfilled, then I'll give some place else a try.

The night of my divorce, I had a conversation with someone that emotionally scarred me, forcing me to question a lot of my associations and hobbies. I've decided that while I do need to expand my life into other areas, quite frankly I'm satisfied and proud of a lot of the 'geekier' things I've done. Here's a hint: There were (by my count) about 40% of women for every guy at Dragon con, in some of the most nerdlike hobbies imaginable. So the primary argument of my 'nemesis' as she referred to herself, is essentially null and void. The flip side of that is that most of them are about 10 year younger....good for younger generations, not so helpful for me but (shrugs) the other major decision I've made is that while I'm open to dating at this point, I'm going to spend my time putting my damn life back together first since I still have occasional mental/emotional break downs. In fact, the truth is that given all the baggage I carry at this point, those won't ever entirely go away. Its a fact I have to understand going forward. High maintenance, impersonal or empathetical companions are best avoided in general, but especially in my case because I'd end up emotionally investing in someone that is just going to cause problems later on down the line. One step at a time.

So 'the plan' is as follows:

While I'll still do incidental board games and table top rpg's with friends, I'm kind of 'done' with that on a regular basis. LARP's on the other hand, I've found I love. I'm definitely upping my activity in that area, so I'll be spending the next few months finding one (and only one) that I really like. I'm kind of partial to trying out the Forest of Doors first because they ran the LARP I liked so much at Dragon Con.

The second thing I'm going to do is something competitive and something physical. If the Martial Art X (something I hope to start after the 15th of this month whatever it might be) is fun and I enjoy it, I'll try tournaments in that area. If it isn't, I might try competitive shooting (since I now know from experience I like shooting guns....which shouldn't really be a surprise) or perhaps billiards. That decision will ultimately be made at the end of the year.

More posted each day as I plot out my 'life'.

Oh and I'm retiring Red Anvil at the end of the year. What that means EXACTLY is still kind of vague but it certainly doesn't mean I'm not going to be doing many creative things. In fact, in some ways, this is only the beginning.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Meh

So this last weekend was rather relaxing. I was mildly ill on Saturday but I got better moderately quickly. I got almost nothing done but that isn't the biggest complaint in the world. Plus after the previous weekend I needed the rest. :) The one exception to this was a basic firearms class I took Sunday night which was interesting.

The weekend before last I was a security guard at Fairy Escape, which was boring but fun. Got to see a lot of really interesting panels and to see the after evening entertainment. This was rather nice though I ended up having to guard a door most of the evening after my shift. But that was OK because I'd volunteered to help out for a friend plus it was for Mythic Imagination Institution which is a cause I support. Sunday I directed a scene for Sentinel. Production is really not my thing but seeing a bit of what they do will help me write scripts for them in the future...I'm getting largely burned out of writing...and a lot of other things. I don't think it means I'll never write again but finishing my committed projects is taking more time and I'm also looking into new things to do. After dragoncon I'll be taking that martial arts I always wanted to take. I think it mainly just means I am ready for a new direction, I'm just not sure how much of my old life I'll carry over.

Good friends and family of course, some science fiction and fantasy books, I know I like LARPing...in fact after Gencon I like it even more....board games and table top....I dunno. Maybe. I'm not opposed to the idea but it depends I think on how many other things are going on. Outdoors and sports and the like are increasing in my interest right now...as are (if I do writing) Mysteries and more mainstream literature. I'm not sure about film work...it depends on how the edit of the reshoot of Dueling Morons goes I think.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Almost a Month

And a whole hell of a lot has happened.

Highlights: Well, lets see...Gencon went really well. Attended five larps (summaries of some are included in the links below.) Enjoyed myself. Things were a little morose on Saturday of last weekend but saw the Other Guys and it went well. I think I like LARPS because of the social dynamic. Its fun too, though the stories can be really really complicated. It makes sharing the experience outside of the LARP rather difficult.

Writing is kind of difficult. Haven't updated the writing blog but my highest priority right now is that graphic novel followed by Novel 4. Its one thing if I want to take a break for a while, its something else entirely if I do it with writing partnerships. For that matter, Dueling Morons the reshoot is sitting around gathering dust, though I hope to get Jay's help in extracting the footage via fire wire once he's done shooting this weekend and the next.

I keep thinking of things I should post more but I'm drawing a total blank. I may consider dating after Dragon Con. Right now I'm considering moving some time in Feb or March of next year. Not sure where. New York or San Francisco or Miami are the most likely locations, but there are a lot of factors involved in the decision. Part of which will also determine when I move out of Mom and Skip's, since if I'm only going to be in an apartment 4 months that kind of defeats the point. I think a change could do me a lot of good.

Two other things: Earlier back in July I saw Mom in Trailer Park the Musical. It was great. It was so great they extended her show a week. The guy who directed that is in talks with the two of us to maybe do a play I mentioned earlier that Mom suggested we do. I'd mainly be producing. Want to give my creative juices a bit of a break. The second thing is that I served jury duty immediately upon returning from Gen Con. I'll post more on that in my political blog another time. Enough for now.

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Sunday, July 25, 2010

Slowly Healing

Things are slowly getting better. Very slowly. I've been keeping myself busy with projects here and there. Staying with Mom and Skip for a few months was a very wise decision. I've also had a lot of supportive siblings, and friends (Jay, Russel and Kalina in particular) which I greatly appreciate. It has helped take what would be a night mare scenario and instead make it merely a painful one. I'm still not used to things, but I'm getting there.

I have found a bar I like. Twains. It has the feel of what I'm looking for which is kind of the essence of everything I like about Decatur. I've only had one beer both times I've gone but have enjoyed the ambiance. They have concerts on Thursday nights and I think I'll make this a weekly occurrence. It helps me feel more like a real person and not just someone whose whole life revolves around rpg's, board games, computer games, internet games, LARPS, television and movies. There is absolutely nothing wrong with those things, but a balanced life has more. Right now for me 'more' consists of the gym....and these concerts. Writing helps, but I want my writing to reflect more of the world at large at this point. There is so much I've never had a chance to experience, now is the time to go out and experience it. I've explored every world that never was, inside out frontwards and backwards to the point that I'm pretty much a Master Explorer, Creator and "Citizen" of the Imagination. Now how about reality?

More dangerous, but more exciting at the same time. I think the lesson at the end of "Labyrinth" is a good one. Live in reality, but you can always have your 'old friends' around any time you close your eyes. Plus most of my real friends are involved in the unreal on a regular basis, so its not like I'm going to change things too radically.

Some of the things that are changing, besides the 'bar' are that I'm signing up for a pistol coarse with American Classic Marksman this week. I'm also taking a martial arts class in September. Still haven't chosen which one but I've got a whole month to do so.

Was going to go to my 20th high school reunion this week but was unable to get a flight for less than a thousand by the time it became clear I'd be able to go. Was going to go to Graceland instead for the weekend. But I had my first hangover. Moderation is definitely something is wise to practice.





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Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Plod

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So the Friday before last I went out to see Toy Story 3. I liked it so much that Grandma, Mom and I went the next Friday. It was important to me that they see it in the theater. No regrets there.

Sent Kalina my tent, I'm not using it. It is rather small...much too small for me. I'm gonna have to get and/or rent a special one but fortunately REI is just AWESOME for that. The membership is totally awesome, unlike most, you only pay it once EVER and if you only go camping two or three times a year it totally pays for itself. You can rent tents and backpacks for dirt cheap. Yes, it can make some economical sense to just buy it yourself, but you also have to store it, and the quality you get by renting it is much higher than if you buy it. Especially in my case where I need a special tent due to my overly largish looming frame.

For the 4th of July we watched "Watchmen" which I regard as thematically appropriate given my current opinion of all things political. Exercise is doing well. I find that a good thirty minute walk on the treadmill helps my attitude considerably.